Feelings are just one of those things I can’t convey. I’m a hermit crab when it comes to displaying any kind of confrontation towards another person who wants to talk about my feelings. I sneak back inside. All that emotional bullshit just isn’t me. Why can’t we just have a good time? Forget everything. Why we gotta talk it through? No point in it to me. Just a waste of time. Not gonna listen to anyone but myself. If you don’t agree with me there’s the door. At that point you’re talking to a wall.
Signed, a girl who knows exactly what she wants.
and all I can think it that it’s for the best since you couldn’t treat me the best. You expect me to just get over your wrongdoings like if it’s so easy to do. Sure you can get over my little mess ups I do every once in a while. But you. You have done much worse. I sit here and continue to tell myself it’ll get better it will. But we just keep sinking. In reality we’re just drowning ourselves. I wanna be like how we were but we just can’t not after what you did. My trust is gone. Once it’s lost it’s extremely hard to get back. Yet I try and try to give you a chance so I wait for this trust to return for my guards to fall again to have what we used to have but I’m afraid it’s too late. I don’t know what to do anymore. I don’t want to let go of you yet though. I’m not ready but almost ready. I’m not sure if anyone will understand yet I don’t know what to do. I want to be happy with you but I just can’t fully let myself anymore. I’m just scared.